January 2010
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December 2009
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“Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.”
Leo F. Buscaglia
Look towards the future :)
I am a fool of which does not speak things that should be said, but do not feel bad for words unsaid for perhaps one day the person they are meant for will allow you the pleasure of speaking them. A chance for them to be heard and responded to. Such a shame they could not be spoken when they were meant to be though. What the outcome could of been from saying them than compared to saying them now....
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Going to curl up in bed, hide under the blankets and just..i dont know…. try to sleep I guess. text me?
Why am i in such pain tonight? ::sigh:: seriously, this pain in my chest just wont fade. :( text me? i probably wont be sleeping because of this. ::takes a deep breath:: I snmdksdnf;kkalndskk
>:D
I am confused but i like it cause i just feel so happy at the same time. xD I dont know why but i just feel light at the moment. Not a care in the world. Of course this will probably crash down around me soon enough but till than ill enjoy it :) also i may not sleep tonight xP to hyper/excited/happy/etc idk hahaha im just in a good mood. :3 hehehehehehhe i so wanna just want to stand out on my...
o.o
::sigh:: words cant express what im feeling. nothing can. I dont think i even know what this is that im feeling. balls. yet i feel like i just want to start shouting things out. text it.
Rawr
Tonight was a good night, minus the point i realized i caused my hand to bleed xP and that folks is why you should not dive out of a car hahahaha but it was a good fun night none the less :) although i am still curious about what else wanted to be talked about, I guess that will wait till another day :P if she wants to that is ^_~ hmmm im gonna go bandage my hand xD BYE BYE!
Hmm...
So im debating on whether or not i should sleep tonight. not sure if i will >_> also i am scared for some reason. Dont really know why, im just scared. ::sigh:: text me?
::Yawn::
Im way to tired today. My mind is dead, my body is dead. Im barely functioning and you know what. I like this. I really do.In this state i feel nothing ^_^ just the tiredness xP but i mean thats okayy :) I may not even sleep again tonight xD i forgot how wonderful of a feeling this is for me. :) im such a little creep ^_^ HAHAHA now if you excuse me, i have to wrestle a bear for a pineapple....
More pondering.
So I thought more today. Not a whole lot, but enough. There’s only one thing To Do Three words For you (I love you) I love you. Maybe? I dont know rally but i think i may have really did love. Oh well that isnt important now >_< Im just gonna pick up and move on. Well thats what im telling myself right now. I mean love? How can you define it? How do you know you feel it? Can love really be...
Pondering :(
I cant do it anymore…. I just cant. I let these feeling grow, i didnt control them when i should have. I put my hopes up, i left them there. Now they are crashing down and i cant take it. I really cant. :\ How could I feel this way about one person? Why did I? The answer is quite simple actually, im a fucking stupid retard. Dont try to say im not or make me think otherwise. It wont help. I...
Its Friday....
But today is going to be a very horrible day for me :\ call it a very good hunch……. text me?
“I’m a loner, I’m a loser, I’m a winner, In my mind. I’m a bad one, I’m a good one, I’m a sick one, With a smile.”
Positive.
Im feeling quite positive today. Lets see how long this lasts.
Im going to curl up in bed, cover my self in all my covers and watch a movie by myself for once :/ ::sigh:: what i wouldnt give right now…..
A rant of sorts i guess....
I want to shout out so many things this moment, i want to let people know how I feel. Yet i hold them in. I hold these feelings in and do not show them, nor will I probably ever. I do this because im afaird if I show them i will just fuck up more and hurt them. I always do. I want to let tears flow from my eyes as I shout these things but my eyes have been dry for so long that they can not...
Guess what I am?
I fucked up. im a fuck up. All i do is fuck everything up. All i do is hurt people i care for. I cant do a damn thing right anymore. Im just another douchebag in this world now. So before i continue to fuck up, I would just like to say im sorry. Im sorry for hurting you, for being a douche to you. I never meant to. Im a fuck up. Im just like my father, i was never any better than him. Im just...
Farewell.
Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for a while, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never, ever the same. Texts?
Hello.
Why can’t we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn’t work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say good-bye. I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos.
